Indentity……….recogition………praise………..appreciation………look them up in a dictionary and you will find very different meanings for them all…………but look inside yourself………these words cease to exist………..but born is the dependancy we have on these things……….We depend on “knowing” we exist……….we cannot take satifaction that there is a being that created us and he is watching us, appeciating us where we remember Him, comforts us when we cry out in pain, listen to the rambling of our mind, lifetime after lifetime as a patient lover who dotes on every word his beloved speaks…………
Oh waheguru……………this cannot continue………..i cannot control this mind……………why should i? it not my to control…………..when there was You………..i did not feel the separation that we call Me, Them, I, You………….”I” dont want to be anywhere where there is no You, Where You are, that is where I am because You are me and I, You……………please help me realise this…………..i want to fall into your arms………..i want to love you with a depth that know no bounds…………….im dead being separated from you………….i knw nothing……….i feel nothing……………….expect the pain of not being with You………………..i cannot see…………….everything has become dark…………….i cannot hear…………when your God Song is not sung…………….the howling of the winds resounds with emptiness…………………….i cannot to speak………..even to utter your priase comes with your will…………….how can i be with you?
Who am I?” as soon as we pose this question to our unfaithful mind……..it takes us on a journey to the surface of our mind and the flith, uncertainties, vunerabilities, insecurities WE harbour…………..this confortation cannot be handled by an idle mind……….this is the stage where the majority of us reside, quite happly, in this bubble of self denial………………so we look to the world, draw comparisions………………..listen to the Guru but think about aplying it later………………..who are you, who am i? Are we anything? are we everything.?………….this journey of self discovery is one that we must all go on………….if we are to achieve to the key the the Door of Liberation………….
| mU lwln isau pRIiq bnI ] rhwau ] |
| I have fallen in love with my Beloved Lord. ||Pause|| |
| qorI n qUtY CorI n CUtY AYsI mwDo iKMc qnI ]1] |
| Cutting it, it does not break, and releasing it, it does not let go. Such is the string the Lord has tied me with. ||1|| |
| idnsu rYin mn mwih bsqu hY qU kir ikrpw pRB ApnI ]2] |
| Day and night, He dwells within my mind; please bless me with Your Mercy, O my God. ||2|| |
| bil bil jwau isAwm suMdr kau AkQ kQw jw kI bwq sunI ]3] |
| I am a sacrifice, a sacrifice to my beauteous Lord; I have heard his Unspoken Speech and Story. ||3|| |
| jn nwnk dwsin dwsu khIAq hY moih krhu ik®pw Twkur ApunI ]4]28]114] |
| Servant Nanak is said to be the slave of His slaves; O my Lord and Master, please bless me with Your Mercy. ||4||28||114|| |
Wonderful state…& expressions….
May i take the liberty to add :
We have been given various identities by others and before we ever realize they take control of our lives.. and we become… doctors, engineers, sons, brothers, sisters , technocrats …. and what not.
And in the process, forget our real self. Our real self is when we are born, no name, no expectations, no qualifications..perhaps no religion..etc… only a child. AS we grow up, layers of identities start accumulating on us. And our real self dies under the load of these hundreds of identities.
To know who am i, We have to reverse the process of our learning. We have to unlearn what we have learnt… go back to being a child…no desires, no expectations, no aspirations, no knowledge, no words, and total peace, all smiles and bliss.
This reversal process can only begin with the grace of the Guru.
And if we are lucky to get this grace, we should not stop…..
Once we move on this path, we will realise that we are nothing but GOD itself. Its a wonderful thought to think like this.But… Sometimes, rather most of the time it gives boost to our biggest enemy – our ego. And if we are further blessed, we realise that yes, i am none other than God itself and so is everyone and everything else. (Whether others realise this or not.)
And this is a truely wonderful state. Perhaps this is what people meditate/do sadhna etc for.
I wish we all stay in this state …. always…
April 11, 2008 @ 10:13 am