{"id":22,"date":"2008-04-30T02:57:43","date_gmt":"2008-04-30T09:57:43","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/blog.sikhsangeet.com\/justme\/2008\/04\/30\/forgetting-how-to-feel\/"},"modified":"2008-04-30T02:57:43","modified_gmt":"2008-04-30T09:57:43","slug":"forgetting-how-to-feel","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/blog.sikhsangeet.com\/justme\/2008\/04\/30\/forgetting-how-to-feel\/","title":{"rendered":"Forgetting how to feel&#8230;&#8230;.."},"content":{"rendered":"<p>im not sure what to make of this &#8220;feeling&#8221; it began about 2 days ago&#8230;&#8230;&#8230;.and has steadly increased with its intensity&#8230;&#8230;&#8230;&#8230;&#8230;..but if i can can begin to express some understanding of it&#8230;&#8230;it is like sitting on the side of a fence and watching yourself&#8230;&#8230;&#8230;yet u are powerless to stop any of your actions&#8230;&#8230;&#8230;..an awareness has arisen&#8230;&#8230;&#8230;&#8230;with this a longing&#8230;&#8230;..a desire&#8230;&#8230;.and a sweet pain ensues&#8230;&#8230;..the feeling is not bad&#8230;&#8230;..it is constant&#8230;&#8230;..<\/p>\n<p>\u00a0I do not know what to do&#8230;&#8230;..i contemplate it&#8230;&#8230;.i find myself delving deep into the inner fortress of myself&#8230;&#8230;..where im surrounded by my very own evils&#8230;&#8230;.yet i do not feel frightend&#8230;&#8230;i feel sheltered&#8230;&#8230;&#8230;&#8230;.the bad things are always there but now they seem&#8230;..bearable&#8230;&#8230;&#8230;..<\/p>\n<p><a href=\"http:\/\/blog.sikhsangeet.com\/justme\/files\/2008\/04\/ghost-town.jpg\" title=\"ghost-town.jpg\"><img src=\"http:\/\/blog.sikhsangeet.com\/justme\/files\/2008\/04\/ghost-town.thumbnail.jpg\" alt=\"ghost-town.jpg\" \/><\/a>\u00a0<\/p>\n<p>Feelings are strange&#8230;&#8230;&#8230;and alien to me&#8230;&#8230;&#8230;but to feel&#8230;&#8230;..the experience is something else&#8230;&#8230;&#8230;..there is a light at the end of the tunnel&#8230;&#8230;..almost like through all the bad thoughts, evil intent&#8230;..a small deminishing light and catches ur consiousness and dissapears before you even register its here&#8230;&#8230;&#8230;&#8230;..i feel i had discovered how to hope<\/p>\n<p>Hope for something better, hope that if not today&#8230;&#8230;.someday&#8230;&#8230;&#8230;the inner peace i so desperatly crave will come&#8230;&#8230;&#8230;..someday&#8230;&#8230;..oneday&#8230;&#8230;&#8230;.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>im not sure what to make of this &#8220;feeling&#8221; it began about 2 days ago&#8230;&#8230;&#8230;.and has steadly increased with its intensity&#8230;&#8230;&#8230;&#8230;&#8230;..but if i can can begin to express some understanding of it&#8230;&#8230;it is like sitting on the side of a fence and watching yourself&#8230;&#8230;&#8230;yet u are powerless to stop any of your actions&#8230;&#8230;&#8230;..an awareness has [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":25,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[1],"tags":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/blog.sikhsangeet.com\/justme\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/22"}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/blog.sikhsangeet.com\/justme\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/blog.sikhsangeet.com\/justme\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/blog.sikhsangeet.com\/justme\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/25"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/blog.sikhsangeet.com\/justme\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=22"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"http:\/\/blog.sikhsangeet.com\/justme\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/22\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/blog.sikhsangeet.com\/justme\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=22"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/blog.sikhsangeet.com\/justme\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=22"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/blog.sikhsangeet.com\/justme\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=22"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}